Does he really honestly think that I hook up with just anything that'll have me? Like seriously, I kissed him and it was the first time. I've never kissed anyone like that before or since. But he always encourages me with basically anyone else. The guy that blogged about screwing me and now this new guy that wants friends with benefits. Who, while being a nice guy and my friend (also technically my first boyfriend), he's a sleaze. Maybe I shouldn't judge guys that cheat, but I do. You-know-who is my exception. And the type of "but I was drunk and just wanted to make out!" cheating just doesn't cut it for me. Plus he's seriously into PDA, he once (I think) hit an old girlfriend, not hard but still a hit, and threatened to kill himself if another broke up with him. When I dated him, we were 13 so not a big deal but he was too touchy for me. I will never forget the awkward bus trip be spent stroking my hair while I awkwardly sat there next to him.
I don't hook up without feelings. Not without it meaning something, i've never done that. I'm not saying that's not in my future at all but... I just don't like him encouraging me to go there.
WHy can't guys just like me for my personality? I didn't think I'd ever need to say this but my body isn't actually good. So why do I get these offers? Why don't people just like me for me? Sigh. #Hotgirlproblems.
P.S That was a joke. I'm not hot.
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