This online dating this is really giving me a lot of fodder to talk about

I'm trying to stop apologizing for my opinions.

I guess this makes less sense, talking about this on my blog, where I pretty much say anything and it's totally cool, but with other people, men especially, I usually downgrade my reactions and opinions and ideas. Since I have a fondness for cleaver words used to describe things like this, here's one I've heard 'wominimizing.' Where you start senstences, 'I might be wrong but isn't so-and-so actually...' or 'Sorry, I'm not sure, but maybe it's because you did this part wrong..." or etc etc. It's just lack of confidence in your own opinions and ability to be right.

I do it a lot when it comes to personal feelings or opinions, I accomadate a lot. Like, with this online dating thing, I have to reject guys. I just do, when I'm not attracted to them but they talk to me and I talk back, I'm friendly and then later I have to find a way to break it down that I'm not into them and it is hard. I'm awful at it. I'm not forceful and I put question marks on the ends of all my sentences. For example "I like you, but I don't think we have much in common?" "I don't know how much further we can take this?"
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These all work just as well without a question mark, and actually would improve it but it scares me to be that bang on target.

In other news, there is this guy that sent me 4 emails of decent length that I did not reply to because I was not interested and really busy with exams,  but I was eventually like thanks but no thanks. He did not get the message, kept emailing me, and so I sent him this. I thought I was being straightforward and polite.

Me:  hope you go well on your exams but honestly, I don't think we're compatible, even as friends. I think I'd prefer to just end our communication here...
Sorry

Since then he has sent me two MORE emails.
 

okkk i dont knoww...
if u feel like that its up on you.....
i am not disturbing you anymore... if you would like to come back to meee again... anytime you r welcome for a friendshippp......
i hope you too goood luck on your exams and i hope u willl get all HD in your exam...
may seee u some where in the future....

heyy...
My dear friend... what had happened to uuu... r u really stressed that what i got while reading your profile update.....dont worry u stay sometime in beach or lokking the beauty of nature u will be getting relaxed..
And don't worry about gay rights and alll its right ... and people like to follow that what is the problem.. you know i am not a gay.. but i have frndss who are gay.. its not a problem.. its a persons wish to follow what he want to follow...
Also I am a person who believes in equality among men and women... there is no difference between the rights of men and women... the have equal freedom... whenever something comes dont be afraid be bold and express yourself then no one can supress you...
I hope you are all right and i thinkk you had done well on your exams....
Also wishing you and your and friendsss a happy and enjoyable  road trip to  goldcoastt..... enjoy the summer vaccationnnn.......

Jesus Christ, what the fuck.

Why has he made this attachment to me.

This is how stalkers are made.