I don't get it when people think it's cute or attractive when someone is bad at something. Like, if you go iceskating and one person is always falling about and the other one has to catch them  and they have to go really slowly wobbling about on the ice holding hands.

To be honest, that really doesn't appeal to me at all. Though actually, I've done that at camp in Year 8. It was my birthday and he was the hottest boy ever and I got my first kiss on the cheek and we held hands going around and I redid his laces because he didn't know what he was doing and they weren't tight enough and my best friend got jealous cos he was skating with me so I won that evening (we had a points system- sue us, we were 13). Actually, I turned 14 that day I think. It was my birthday.

Wow that was a good day.

But anyway, off topic. It was actually sparked because there are new spoilers today for Glee-- Kurt and Blaine iceskating in New York, Blaine can do it/ Kurt can't. Or maybe just Darren can and Chris can't, I don't know. But everyone is squeeing and in this case, I don't get it.

Well, actually, there is so much about fandom that I don't get. Maybe that can be this entries topic. I was going to ramble on about how hot is it when guys are good at stuff, but I've done that before. Wht can I say, if I go iceskating, I want a guy that can race me around the rink and skate backwards at least a little bit. Omg, I've so freaking picky.

Okay- other things in fandom.

Why OTP's are generally always focused on two older, white men who are generally strong, powerful, capable and usually at least one is complete Alpha Male. My theory is that it's because these shows like Supernatural, while not originally intended to have the intense and almost complete female demographic 18-35 that they do, means that women characters do not survive very long on television. It's a sexism thing, but it's internalised. It's a 'why do girls hate other girls so damn much?' question. Girls hate random bitches getting between their boys. Even if it's Supernatural and those boys are brothers. That's the relationship we want to see. Girls love bromances. Girls love hardcore "I'll die for you" promises, can't live without you, 'you understand me better than anyone else in the world' relationships. Shippers live for that. And generally since it's all subtextual, it doesn't get fucked up. I mean, if you bring in a girl and try the same thing, it can work. Think, Tiva (kinda, I'm not really on that bandwagon, Tony/Gibbs is my brand of heroin) or Barney/Robyn, I haven't seen X files but I assume Scully/Mulder (are those the right names idk). Lizzy/Gordo, I don't know, Brittana, whatever else I watch. People want the relationships that aren't meant to happen because it means that the writers are developing the relationship naturally and unintentionally, which means that while subtextual, it means that wherever the shipping starts, it is organic. You see it cos it's there, intended or not. And fans do not like being pushed into liking new relationships. It's not like real life exactly. Whoever they are first with is basically who people want them to stay with.

I ship best friends pairings most of the time, whether best bros, most profound bond, even like Sora/Riku for just being the competitive growing up together bros. I mean, I do it in real life too. I hate this getting to know you stage. I can barely even stand it in TV shows. You know what I want. History. Fun memories and past experiences. I just hate the getting there when it's awkward and you don't have a reason to care yet. I keep ignoring BOTH the guys I'm supposed to be getting to know. I don't know why, I just can't be bothered to do anything about it. I don't know them so they don't stack up against anyone I do know. Which leads me into dangerous sulky 'I want you-know-who' territory. Not that that is even a thing, but I was at the trust with  everything stage with him and I like that stage. God damnit,

If I wasn't such a lazy, scared, unenthusiastic person, I could be meeting one of them tomorrow. But I am terrified so I don't want to. Update: I think he's kinda annoyed at me for just ignoring him for the last few days. Oh well. I can't decide what I want to do. Both of them want to meet me but I just want to leave it as is.

I just want to date somebody that I already know and that's at wollongong uni and that's smart and not super into going out drinking. I feel like that isn't that high a standard. But then I remember that I also have to find them attractive and be able to talk to them and they need to have similar politics and then I think it's impossible.

Like, today I hung out with a guy I know but have never really talked to much, from my high school. He and I, as well as my bffl and another girl were playing tennis this morning, then went to my bffls and got lunch and watched Inception (which wasn't as amazing as I expected) and who knows, maybe he'll become something of a person of interest. He has awesome arms and a nice smile.

Who knows. Oh the possibilities.