par-tay

I'm pretty much the antithesis of 'social'. I look forward to being alone, to hanging out by myself and watching Supernatural and wearing old pajamas and dancing around in my underwear singing. Now that I'm home 4 mornings a week by myself, I get ample time for this, which is great.

But I am trying pretty hard to go out and join things and do things involving other people. I'm not completely sporty, but I wish I was. Like, I'm competitive and really like being good at things. I'm not great at sport but I do quite a bit of it, and I'm always trying to get better. Sometimes it's running, though that's got a bit out of reach lately, I just can't get motivated, sometimes it's Saturday netball (finals this week, after a disappointing loss at major semis), or indoor netball (which I do with my mum), or rock climbing (indoor, which I'm hoping is going to be a weekly thing). I've started basketball too, which is scary but fun, and it's with people I don't know as well, so it did take some guts to show up and do that last week, but now I think I'm going to really enjoy it, especially with no more saturday netball comp. Which also means no more fitness training/netball training twice a week, or no coaching or umpiring. My life is gonna have a lot less commitments all of a sudden, but it's sad because I did love those things. I will hopefully coach my team again next year. I hated it sometimes because having commitments can be overwhelming sometimes when all I want to do is go home and sleep but I have something mandatory to do, and it got a bit tedious, but it was worth it. I did end up loving those little nerdy annoyances that made up my team. Fairy Meadow Finders.... good times.

But yeah, I guess that was me getting out there a bit, making new friends and knowing more people and getting involved. Sport is good for that I think. I'm not good at parties and such. Not that I go to many with people I don't know there but small talk isn't my thing and people always end up remembering the other girls and not me. Which is okay lol, I accept that. The fact is though that even when I go to parties with so called 'popular' people, the kind that go out and drink and such, we still usually end up doing normal things like playing Mario Kart or Wii and hanging around, just you know, normal. Which is what I like, to be honest, but it doesn't get me out there much.

I like to think I can get out of my comfort zone sometimes, whether to prove my bffl wrong, or because I think it will be fun or just to try something new. I don't get invited to big parties really (I'm not popular) and if I do, I don't always go, because obviously, they don't suit me well. Not only will none of my friends go, leaving me to make my own way, but it's uncomfortable and not super fun. My friends can be kind of disappointing sometimes, because I don't have anyone on the same level as me... except my bffl who is pretty close. No one likes clubbing like I do, or is willing to try alcohol to the same limits as me, or is I guess... just at the same maturity for these things. I have ones that are much higher, that are completely comfortable with things that I don't know how to do or understand or want, and ones that don't get into it at all, or that try but don't really enjoy it and I feel bad for encouraging them to when they don't end up having that much fun. But I just like trying new things sometime and having a few drinks to try to find things I like. Not much success on that front yet, but there have been improvements, I tried a few new drinks on Friday night that weren't bad, and I'll have more chances this weekend at my cousins 21st.

My best friend is the closest to me in this, which is good. She doesn't like to drink at all which is fine. She isn't against it morally, which is my biggest pet peeve, when people get all judge-y when I say I'm going to drink. Mia just doesn't like the taste and isn't going to put herself through yucky tastes for the effects, which I approve of. My family is much bigger on alcohol though, and I know that people do enjoy the taste of alcohol, I just have to find what I like :)

I think I approve most of a  mix between doing 'adult' things like going out to clubs and having alcohol at parties, and having movie nights and going out for dinner and meeting up at the park to chill etc, things we enjoyed before we turned 18. I certainly don't think you need alcohol to have a good time, I've never had a better time with alcohol than without it, but I don't rule it out either.

Moderation is key etc.