opinion

One of the most annoying things about having been involved with someone who was involved with someone else, is that I've mostly lost the right to have opinions on cheating now.

Like, I was watching a movie yesterday with Megan, which was lovely by the way, and the main chick was about to kiss some guy (it was a rom com, sue me) and I was moaning 'Noooo, girlfriend..." when I got a weird look from Megan.

But I wasn't talking to the girl, I was talking to the guy. I figure I can still have feelings about guys that cheat, I just can't judge girls that let them. Which is fine, because to be honest, I'm not that inclined to. I justified it, so I assume that some other people can too. Not always, but I think there is a reasonable excuse policy. I'm not saying people should cheat-- I don't think that. I wouldn't do it again and I feel I deserve some level of judgement and guilt because of my actions.

I just figure I can't judge other people more harshly than I do myself. But I'm still allowed an opinion. And in this movie, the guy really was a dick. He just wanted the attention of both women because it made him feel special. Maybe that's how it was with you-know-who as well, but I don't know that for sure and I didn't recognise it at the time if that's true, so I don't judge him for it.

I guess it's just time now that I have to wait, until I'm 24 and I can brush it off with a 'omfg, I was 17, we were in high school, I was dumb!' and let it get made irrelevant that way.

In other related news, my netball friends who are in the same year/school as you-know-who's girlfriend, I sort of mentioned her/them, because while I don't care, but I sort of still like hearing different gossip/perspectives. And surprisingly, I struck gold because they think she's a bitch and kind of hate her. So we bonded over that. Not that I think those things, but I was like "yeah, she doesn't like my group of friends cos she thinks we hate her too..."

Anyway, I just thought it was funny.