New Years

January 1st! 2013!

I spent New Years Eve trying not to die from lack of sleep until sunrise - which did not come, at least not where we could see from the beach. Too many clouds this year sadly.

Maybe I could wake up early tomorrow morning and go see it? Keep going each morning until I get a good one. Maybe not. I suppose it'll depend on how I sleep tonight. Obviously after staying up all night, my sleep is quite disrupted. I slept from 7:30am to 11:30am, then from 1pm to 6pm. That's a good nights sleep, only it was all during the day.

My contacts are acting up a bit which makes my eyes hurt and feel tired though, so hopefully that'll mean I sleep tonight.

NYE was nice, but nothing special. Spent it with a few friends at a party. The best thing was that the theme of the party was 'identity swap'. So each person had to dress up as their partner or friend. I dressed up as my friend Jess, she dressed up as my friend Megan and Megan dressed up as me. I won't upload pics, but my friend Megan, oh my goodness, it was so funny.

My party style is short dresses, curled hair and significant amounts of eyeliner. She also stuffed an extremely padded 10D bra with tissues, which she then pulled up to create a look which I did once, unintentionally and it was the dresses fault, so the bra is showing above the dress line.

Overall, it was basically a chance to us to insult each other (perhaps unintentionally) with how we viewed not only fashion choices but mannerisms.

I realised a few things about myself that I need to work on, including the awkward way I stand, with my fingers half linked in front of me nervously.  I also want to work on my dancing. I just don't dance naturally, so when I dance with people, I tend to just adjust to how other people dance, people who move so naturally that I get jealous.

I left Jess's house at about midday. She and Megan were still sleeping but it was so hot all of a sudden when I woke up next to Megan all squished and sweaty so I just got my stuff together and left. Sometimes I regret doing stuff like that, but I'm introverted enough that after 18 hours, I just like to get home to my own bed and own food and shower. Especially when I just want to fall into a nice cool sleep coma. I mean, Jess woke up long enough for me to say goodbye, I didn't just sneak off like a one night stand but perks of driving the car, I can decide when I want to leave myself and not have to wait around forever being bored or slightly uncomfortable.

As far as New Years Revolutions go, it's mostly just to get fit. I stopped trying. Not caring, I still cared as much as ever, but I let laziness get the better of me. But with two friends having both lost over 10kg each this year, I need to get my butt into action. If they can do it, I can. These are both girls who act so much more comfortable with themselves already. Maybe they just hide it better.

So I'll be trying to do the fitness thing again.

And New Years Revelations, I'm pretty certain I'm bisexual. That isn't new, obviously but mostly I'm like, bicurious sure, but bisexual is different. Still, I check out girls, I've fallen in love with a girl before, I have girls I want to kiss, that's pretty much all areas of sexuality. I like guys for sure, and I don't think I want to date a girl, because I don't want to go the gay way, I'm fully supportive of gay rights and LGBT but why make life harder for myself?