1. What’s a question you’re afraid to ask? To whom?

I'd be afraid to ask people what they don't like about me? Like, I know I have faults and I think I know what they are but knowing that other people know them too would suck. Like, I'm sure they do, but I'd rather not confirm it. I suppose it's the same as asking why people would like me/ what they think of me, I don't really want to know how people perceive me, in case it's bad.

2. What’s something you hide about your personality?

Lots of things I suppose. FOr an example, maybe... how 'mean' or critical I can be. Judging is perhaps the right word. I always try to be politically correct and friendly and nice, of course, but when things bug me, they bug me. Teeny tiny example, my ex boyfriend used to always wear trackies and they just weren't flattering. And I would never say anything, I know I'd take it badly if someone critisised what I was wearing, and even as a girlfriend, it's not my place to give an opinion, but it still bugged me. I mentioned it to a friend of mine once and she just gave me a 'why does it matter?' look and yeah. I remember thinking about that later when I encouraged them to get together, she was a lot less judgmental then me, I thought they'd get along better.

3. What’s something other people think about you that you don’t agree with?

When I got told that I was a follower, that really got under my skin. I don't see myself that way and since I was told that, I'd tried to be more assertive. Like, if my best friend and I are leaving a lecture and we're equally far away from both doors, normally I'd just follow her. But then I started choosing myself. Or when I went to Retro the other week and went to the dance floor by myself without waiting for her. I see myself as more a second in command. I let other people do the talking but I think I can be pretty fierce and I'm generally knowledgeable/capable, more than a lot of girls.

4. How do you deal with criticism?

Depends what it's talking about. Some things I take to heart, some things roll right off. But not well, in general.

5. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

I love getting postcards and letters etc. I love the thought that someone has put that much effort in and wrote something and sent it. My best friend once made me a Hogwarts letter with my individualised details and a wax seal and gave it to me anonymously in the mail. She told me months later that it was her (in a 'thanks for being my friend, I appreciate you' card actually but it was exciting and sweet.

6. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

I made friendship necklaces for my friend and I last Christmas and glue a picture of us inside the lockets?

7. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

Give me a flower, like just grabbed from someone's garden on the walk to meet me and say 'saw this and thought you might like it'. That'd make my day.

8. Describe your favourite texture.

When you put your hand it a bucket of seeds. Like sunflower seeds, it's such a delicious feeling.

9. Which national or global tragedy were you closest to and how did it affect you?

I suppose the fires in 2001. (I think it was 2001). They were at Christmas so on Christmas night we were trying to get home but the roads were cut off at Bulli Pass, which leads up to the escarpment. We had to park the car in a paddock and just started walking from there. People that were on the other side of the cut off were picking up some people though, and because it was my Dad walking with a bunch of kids (me-7 I think), little brother (4), cousin (9), someone who ended up coincidentally being my Mum's cousin, picked us up and drove us home. You could see the fire in the escarpment from our house which was cool.

10. Post a photo/draw a picture/write a poem (pick one) of a moment of personal significance.

This was from my 18th birthday (selfie ftw). I suppose the beginning of my adult life is kinda significant :P)

11. Which fictional character would you most like to have lunch with and why?

There are so many but I think I'll have to go old school and say Hermione Granger. I never really understood the 'wanting to be represented in media' thing, but I'm white and even as a women I still don't get treated too badly, but looking back, having a character like Hermione who was smart and brave and had friends and had been an outcast, well, that meant something to me.

12. Who would you say is your “anti” role model? Someone who serves as a warning rather than an inspiration?

I suppose my friend who is pregnant. Not to be mean but certainy it'll help remind people to be more cautious. I feel so bad for her right now though. Dealing with losing her best friend, relationship, her whole second family, as well as feeling so sick because of being pregnant and the knowledge that she's going to have a baby... it's so much to deal with. Plus no sex.

13. What’s your least “politically correct” opinion?

Hmmm, I'm sure I have some. Hopefully feminism doesn't count as non politically correct. Sometimes I see the side of radical feminists, which I'm not always proud of because while they aren't evil, their views could be seen as transphobic. I read a really convincing argument about it today though and it does make sense, though I still think I lean more towards liberal feminism.

14. What kind of underwear do you imagine Sherlock Holmes wears?

Briefs. Great, now I'm imagining Benedict Cumberbatch in his pants.

15. What’s one of the most difficult things you’ve ever had to do?

Getting over you-know-who is a challenge and a half.

16. If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why?

First- have my only element joke- what did the bartender say when Gold walked into the bar? AU! Ay, you... get it.... because AU is the symbol for Gold. Heh. I don't know... something fun. Like Neon or Calcium. Something in the first twenty, one of the ones you kind of remember but not super popular like Carbon or Helium.

 17. What’s the most infuriating thing your parents (or caregiver) do?

Touches my hair!

18. Which Disney Princess do you most identify with and why? Which is your favourite and why? And yes, ANYONE can answer this question.

Alice from Alice in Wonderland. She was adventurous and smart and had a cat and cried too much but she just took things as they came and was like 'okay let's give it a go'. Plus she was stubborn and daydreamed a lot.

19. You’re an action movie hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy?

Hand to hand combat I think. I'd like to be an assassin, like the Black Widow. I'd like to be self sufficient like that. And "You have 5 seconds to live motherfucker..."

20. What’s the silliest fan theory you’ve ever come up with?

I love meta but I'm not great at crack fan theories. I have friends that write like, all crack but it's just not my humour at all. I like the dark serious angst. I can't think of one :(

21. What did you think about before you fell asleep last night?

How long until I have to wake up :) I don't really think before I sleep, I just do it.

22. What’s the oddest term of endearment you’ve ever used or that someone’s used for you?

Pink ninja for awhile. That was silly but also kinda odd.

23. What motivates you in life?

Food is good. Knowing that interesting things are going to happen, that I'm going to do something fun, see my friends, play sport...

24. What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you? What’s the story behind that?

Playing with my dolls. I have a whole entry written about this from yesterday but I haven't posted it yet. I used to love that though, I'd do it every day, but by Year 7 and 8 I grew out of it.

25. How do you think you will fare when the zombie apocalypse arrives?

I think not too badly, it just depends on who I'm with. YOu know how I said I'm not a follower? I'm also not a first in command leader. I need someone to take at least equal weight in decisions and to be there with me.

26. Which mythological creature are you most like? Why? And if you could be any mythological creature, which would you want to be? Why?

I was obsessed with fairies as a kid so I'd like to be a fairy. They are small, pretty, pink, sparkly and can fly. Nuff said.

27. Write a brief story about an actual adventure you’ve had.

Okay, so in Year 9, a friend of mine Sarah invited me to go camping with her in the holidays. I'd never been camping before, it was lots of fun. We shared a tent and she told me she'd kissed a guy... I was so fascinated and grossed out. There was tongue. I guess this story is a bit sad now, considering she's now pregnant and he's left her but this is right after they got together,. We had lots of adventures. We went on a mudslide which was exactly what it sounds like but there wasn't that much rain so it wasn't the liquidy and got dirt mud scrapes all up our legs and bum. Sarah also lit a match after the gas had been left on and fried half her eyelashes and fringe, we went on these bush walks at night, screaming songs as we marched. Basically GOING ON A BUSH WALK! GOING ON A BUSH WALK! GONNA SEE A WOMBAT! GONNA SEE A WOMBAT! LUCY'S GOT A MACHETE! LUCY'S GOT A MACHETE! SARAH'S GOT A RIFLE! SARAH'S GOT A RIFLE! BEN'S GOT A SHOT GUN! BEN'S GOT A SHOT GUN! etc. I don't remember the rest but basically we disturbed the peace and had a great time doing it. There was also lots of campfires, and one of the ones in a campsite near ours had an entire hollow log vertical in their fire, so the flames would shoot out the top, it was awesome. We also went canoing and kayaking and I lost the charm bracelet my dad got me for my birthday. Sarah's dad taught me that fresh water is more dangerous than salt to swim in long distance because you can't float as well in fresh water so you can drown easier. I also remember reading erotica in the tent (the Lara series, by Beatice Small I think), which were the first smut books I ever read, my friend Lexy leant me the first one in year 7 and I borrowed the 2nd from Sarah at this camping trip. Don't think I ever gave it back, I still read it sometimes. I remember learning what a 4 wheel drive was and how it differs from a 2WD. I remember using a canoe oar to whack insects that buzzed in swarms on the day we were leaving and I remember hearing the song 'Story Of A Girl' for the first time on the radio. I remember Sarah's day playing the guitar and everyone singing along to Hotel California. I suppose this isn't really an adventure but it was fun to recount. It was 5 days and it was awesome. We would have been... 14?

28. Describe one of the most awkward experiences of your life.

Any time that I'm on the phone. Oh, okay, I thought of one. When I was in Year 7, I was dating this guy, Nathan. I wasn't mature enough for a boyfriend. I don't know if I am now. But anyway, we lived close together so we got the same bus, that was how we were friends, as well as being in the same class. But one time, he sat next to me. He was closest to the window and I had the aisle seat. I was facing away from him, maybe my legs were swinging towards the aisle, or I was just not looking at him. But he started playing with my hair, like stroking it. I have this really weird face, I smile weirdly and when I don't mean to. My best friend calls it my passive face, I make awkward mirco expressions the second I stop paying attention to my face. But I didn't know this at the time, but I was weird smiling so he didn't stop. I mean, I was thinking it but I didn't say anything to him, just kind of grinned and bared it. But it was super awkward. I broke up with him eventually.

29. What’s something that scares you about the future?

That I'll hate my job, that I won't have a family. That I'll be unhappy and it won't live up to my expectations.

30. List 5 quirky things about yourself.

1. I love flowers. Especially yellow ones.

2. I used to do long division at recess in primary school because I thought it was fun. And super satisfying.

3. I can't drink tap water unless it's been in the fridge. I know the fridge doesn't do anything except make it cool but tap water is dirty in my head unless it's from the jug in the fridge.

4. I love things that are high or fast or otherwise thrilling. Theme parks don't phase me at all. But I have a huge fear of jumping off rocks into water. I still do it, but that's conquering  a fear, not just doing it for thrills like rollarcoasters etc.

   5.        I'm really competitive in board games and card games. 

31. Describe your dream library.

Lots of youth fiction, lots of computers, every piece of dystopian apocalyptic or post apocalyptic novel out there. Everything by John Marsden ever. Lots of comfy chairs. Fanfiction in book form. Lots of books on feminism. Hot male librarian.

32. What’s the weirdest item you’ve ever mourned?

My Mum threw out my pack of Kingdom Hearts cards that came with Kingdom Hearts 356/2 days. I am still upset about this. The cards were barely usable, because the numbers weren't written that clearly. But they were perfect in any other way- I didn't want to use them, i just wanted to keep them forever. So I am forever bitter.

33. If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like?

It would just go so fast that you couldn't even scream. It would just go super high and fast and upside down. Or a ride that's simpler but that you do yourself, like the ROTAR at Luna Park where you get stuck to the wall and can wiggle your way upside down or that ride ta festivals and fetes where you pay ten bucks and you get in the harness on the tramponline and get to do flips. I could do more than anyone.  I like going upside down. 

34. Do you have any “rules” about food?

Not really. I should but I can't stop myself most of the time.

35. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

I have lots of opinions (I'm judgemental remember) but in the end, I don't care unless the people involved are getting what they want out of it and are happy with the arrangement. I don't like it if someone is being manipulated or forced or coerced.

36. What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about?

Damn it I can only think about sex things. Everything else I'm pretty open about. All my nerdy things I share! I'm going to have to break my no-kinks-shared-on-blog rule aren't I? No, that'd be weird. I'll think of something and come back.

37. Describe a time/event in your life that you’re nostalgic for.

I liked all the times in my life, I'm probably romanticising them, but I love my life and pretty much all past parts. I don't remember any real dark patches. Probably the you-know-who times I'm nostalgic for, I miss talking to someone like that.

38. How do you approach social situations?

Trepidation but an open mind :)

39. What is your ideal bed? Why?

Something pretty. I only just got a double bed but it's pretty sweet. Except my bedding sucks. I had red sheets before and a white doona and I thought that was cool. It kind of gave a real paradoxical virgin/slut feel. Well that's what it reminded me of haha. So I need to find red sheets again.

40. Post a short excerpt of your life.

Today I basically spent at home, talked for awhile to my friend Sarah about everything she's going through. Then went rock climbing like I do every Tuesday with 5 friends. I finally got this jump that I've been attempting for about 6 weeks. So it was a successful day :)

Wow, I wrote way more than usual. Thanks friend for the list and the lovely formatting.