Week One

WEEK #1	MON	TUES	WED	THURS	FRI	SAT	SUN
1 pt: Contact with Teammate	1	1	1	1	1	1	1
3 pts: 64 oz Water	3	3	3	3	0	0	3
3 pts: Stop eating before 9 pm	3	3	3	3	3	3	3
3 pts: 2 Fruit Servings (1/2 cup each)	3	3	3	3	0	3	3
5 pts: 3 Vegetable Servings	5	5	0	0	5	5	0
5 pts: No Sweets/Sugary Treats (Only 6 days a week)	5	5	5	0	5	5	0
5 pts: Keep a Food Journal	5	5	5	5	5	5	5
5 pts: 30 min. exercise OR 7 pts: 45 min. exercise (Only 5 days a week)	7	7	0	7	7	0	7
TOTAL POINTS: (205 possible for the week)	32 :D	32 :D	20 -.-	24 -.-	26 :)	23 -.-	22 -.-

10 Points per Pound lost AND 5 points for Maintaining Lowest Weight.

Total Points from Week: 179 + Points from Weight Loss: 50 =

Grand Total of Points from Week 1: 129__________

Starting Weight from Sunday night: 75.6 Lowest weight so far: 73.3

Monday

I will track all my fitness posts this week in this one post to keep things neat. Today was completely successful. A+ for diet and exercise.

I did a 5k this morning and am about to go to netball tonight. I had cereal for breakfast with banana, an apple for lunch, a mandarin and a teaspoon of peanut butter for afternoon tea, and mince and pasta for dinner (in sensible serving size), with greens, cherry tomatoes and beetroot.

I know I can't not eat a proper lunch every day, but today since I went on the run then was a lazy bum upstairs in my room, I didn't go down for brekkie until 10 so that was like, 3 hours less that I needed to include in my eating day. Normally I eat at 7:30 so waiting until 12 sucks, whereas if I eat at 10am, waiting until 2 or 3, especially when I'm busy, doesn't seem like a big deal. Then I just have dinner at 6:30. I don't need to eat more tonight but I'd like to... sigh. Just keep that number in my head, 75.6...75.6...75.6... if that can't motivate me to stop eating, nothing will.

It's bikini season now, I can't afford to let this binging and overeating and lack of self restraint go on unchecked. It's going to be hard- hard as hell, and I'm going to hate every minute after 9 o clock when all I want is food, but it's worth it isn't it? Even when I'm cold and I want hot chocolate or I'm with friends at the beach and they say 'let's get hot chips' or I'm in a tute and I get offered chocolate again, or I'm hungry and I have an hour and a half before possibly getting dinner and subway is right there.

I will keep more fruit than I need in my bag so I can always pull that out and can't use 'I'm hungry' as an excuse. "I'm fucking bored of apples' yes, but that's not going to work hopefully.

Anyways, see you tomorrow :)

Tuesday



It's only morning still, so I don't have too much to report. It's 7.54. I'm not running today, I am doing hangdog later so that's good exercise plus I have this massive blister on the inside sole of my right foot that hurts like a mofo. I got it on Saturday after running, made it twice as big yesterday, then finally popped it/tore it playing netball last night. And since I was Centre the first half, that was painful to run around on. Then I switched to GA which was a little better, but I nearly wrenched my left ankle (AGAIN) stepping around in the circle. And we lost by 1 point. And I got one in a second after the whistle. Ah well.

I was pretty hungry when I woke up today, around 6am. That worried me cos I don't want to have a good day yesterday not work because it'll always be followed up with a bad day to get me back in rhythm from being hungry when I fall asleep. I mean, yes, I didn't eat that much yesterday. Until dinner, I was basically poster girl for pro ana/mia. But that wasn't on purpose and I did my best to rectify it with a big meat/carbs dinner.

But once I've weighed myself one day and I know that number, every good day I have, I'm really eager to jump on the scales. But as soon as I have a bad day, I quit the scales and that leads to eventually quitting in general. So though today I really want to weigh in, because I could have lost heaps, just in that one day, I could be down a pound. Mostly water etc, but still. I never really understood all the unhealthy thinspo girls on Tumblr who are like 'I love feeling empty' but right now, I kind of do. There's some satisfaction in it.

My challenges for today:

Regular:
-Homework I need to start
-Stay out of the way of John who's painting.
-Look out for dogs while fences are down- which is all day.

Weight loss:
-Work out what to do with the mince from last night. Since I'll be having dinner at Mia's, either I use it for lunch today (pasta and mince, which isn't that healthy) or Wednesday night dinner. I prefer to have mince at dinner because dinner is my biggest meal of the day.
-Bandaid up my blister in a major way
-Take measurements. I couldn't be bothered to do it yesterday.
-Squats. I didn't do them yesterday urgh, so 190 160 today. FML.

Okay, so I had a salmon sandwich for lunch-350-ish calories with no butter. That was fine, but now I've eaten my apple/peanut butter/cheese snack and it's only 2pm. I have an egg left if I need it but I'm hoping I won't. But... 3 hours til dinner, it's unlikely that I won't. Also, the apple/peanut butter/cheese snack was super yummy. I'll definitely do that again. It took time cutting up the apple and it did go a teeny bit brown but it was so satisfying to eat- like chips or something. Just with peanut butter rather than salt.

Then rock climbing after that. Wooo. Hope my blister can take it.

9:01pm: Hangdog was good, we did 12 walls which is our usual goal. Next time I think we'll try for 13, to prove we're getting better. But we do harder walls as well, so that has to be taken into account.

I had the most delicious dinner, that I said was about 400 calories. Chicken and potato and spinach and salad. And soup to start. I love dinner at Mia's. It's a party for my taste buds. That also makes it really easy to turn down the free pizza because I was satisfied and happy.

I'm not going to eat anymore tonight obviously so today was another A+ in terms of point scoring and calories. It's so stupid that I only seem to have two settings, over maintenance levels (over 2000 calories) or under 1200, which is weight loss. I need to learn moderation but I suck at that.

Wednesday

 I woke up hungry for unhealthy food. Not even anything in particular, just open-the-fridge-and-devour type cravings. It's not an unusual feeling for me, but I'm glad that I'm not listening to it. It's discouraging that I'm getting it on Day 3 though. This challenge is what...8 weeks long, so 56 days. 2 down, 54 to go. Sigh.

Plus then the whole 'rest of my life' deal. But Mum is just like 'no, because once you are just maintaining your weight, you'll have a lot more freedom that you can have unhealthy days and snacks etc, whereas now you have to work harder. That is true, except I apparently suck at maintaining which is crazy because I was doing it fine until I started learning how to diet in the first place.

I'm feeling fine now though. I had cereal (but with no banana cos we ran out sadface), I just added another 10g of cereal. Breakfast for less that 200 calories, I think so. I didn't run, but it was because of my foot. The blister is pretty badass but it's big and painful. I let it dry out overnight (aka took of my 3 bandaids) and it's looking more shiny as opposed to vulnerable and sticky, but not healed. I'm hoping to run Friday morning and just have this as one of my two days off exercise. Or run this arvo, I don't know.

If I don't run today, I'll have to run on Friday, Saturday and Sunday which would be annoying and unwise. Whereas if I run today, I could skip Saturday. Anyways, it's 9 o clock, I'll update you more on my day once I've lived it.

2pm: My brother is in the next room, cooking a shitload of bacon for no reason. I want food. Not bacon cos i don't really like bacon and they are being very liberal with the oil (my extra virgin olive oil by the way). Megan doesn't want to go to movies with me tonight. Grumble.

11:22pm: I was able to sort of fix my unhealthy eating to a degree. My net intake was around 1300, and could possibly have been a bit higher. But I didn't have any more dinner after about 4:30 because I was at the movies and uni and I'm fine to go to bed without anything more to eat. I don't even feel the need to go to the fridge and grab something. Sometimes when I get home from things like this, I get simply ravenous and eat anything at all, where it's caramel slice or peanut butter or cheese or last nights chicken heated up. But I feel good. I mean, maybe a little hungry but nothing that can't wait until morning :)

It does amaze me that I can manage to go 14 hours without food overnight, but during the day, trying to get from lunch to dinner (6 hours) without a snack sucks balls. Anyway, see you tomorrow!

Thursday

10am: Going fine today so far. I've had breakfast and my snack. I had my snack pretty early but honestly, I had a midterm this morning so I needed something to help my brain afterwards. I've realised I've been using more peanut butter than I realised. Serving size 15g (3 teaspoons) my ass. 15g is like, less than one teaspoon. So my healthy snack isn't that healthy anymore, about 290 calories. It's really yummy though so until I get sick of apple, PB and cheese, I'm not worried. Sometimes I just have phases where I want something everyday for a week or two and then it goes away. I can try to switch it up maybe with celery or raisins?

I've had a nice day so far confidence wise and just looking and the mirror and thinking 'I look cute.' Mostly because of the hobo beanie I'm wearing, with my hair kinda curly/wavy underneath and lipgloss, I feel nice. It's the best feeling actually, when I'm wearing something comfortable (jeans/ old T-shirt) but with a nice jacket and hat, I feel stylish and awesome, without wearing something I'm constantly tugging at or thinking 'are they staring at me cos I look weird? Was this a bad choice?'

10pm: My day sort of declined, especially eating wise. I've used up half my sugary sweets for the week on 3 Timtams. A serving size is 2 and I had 2 this afternoon and 1 after dinner. I've also had yogurt and some other things, I was just hungry and bored and sleepy and lazy honestly. It was a cold day and I was just in that kind of mood. But I played basketball which was pretty good. I was napping beforehand so I felt cold and not enthusiastic but once I was there, it was fun.

We're a really bad team though, we suck pretty hard. We haven't come close to winning a game yet but I'm new and it's just a social comp. I'm not actually frustrated, because with basketball whenever they score, we get possession again. The modified rules for the comp include that no player can get more than 12 points before they are maxed out and cannot score anymore. Though we lost by about 50 points (literally), I maxed out for the first time :) So did Nick, who is our best player, mostly because he's a guy and he's tall, but I actually got it first. Though I wait at the halfway line so that when Nick gets the rebound he can just chuck it up to me and I can get down the end before there are opponents to rip it out of my hands because I don't deal well with that. Basketball can suck in that way, I get so many bruises and aches from being hit and grabbed and defended. I always seem to be in the way of that the most. I don't know why that is.

So today wasn't a success really as far as diet does but it wasn't at all falling of the rails. My blister is healing very slowly. It still looks ghastly but I think it'll be okay to run tomorrow before I go to work at 10. That 400 calories I burn from running basically is enough to ensure that I can eat without having to worry too much. 1200 is hard to maintain each day, but 1600 is less so. Especailly since I'm workig and my meals will just be breakfast/lunch/dinner, though hopefully with some fruit/veggies somehow.

Adios! More tomorrow. Also, don't expect this every day for the whole 8 weeks, though it does keep me as accountable as I could be. Still, I do fudge the truth a bit even here or in Myfitnesspal if I'm embarrassed. I'll try not to.

 Friday

I ran this morning. It sucked. I didn't feel that well and I didn't eat anything before I went and I just wasn't feeling it. I got better I think but the first 10/12 minutes, before I get to the beach, can just be painful sometimes. So I stopped for about 2 minutes when I got there, which is pretty rookie of me but it allowed me to keep going for another 25 minutes so whatever. I ran an extra few minutes at the end to make up for it. I always set my ipod to Teenage Dream last, the glee version, bcause Darren Criss is lovely and motivating and there is a bit near the end where it all goes quiet and then builds up and he goes YEAHHHHHH. And that's when I stop :) Usually right after I get to the top of the hill, if I can time it right.

I also worked today, which was good until I screwed up and got lectured and it turned pretty horrible, for what I think was a minor mistake. But I got my crepe to eat which is always delicious and even better news, I GOT A NEW PHONE. It's a Samsung Galaxy S2, and it's beautiful and I love it :) I'm obviously still working it out but it's going to be awesome, I know it. I got the guy to set it all up so it was the easiest thing ever, I just walked away with it and started texting.

And I'm going to have chicken and pasta salad for dinner. Things are looking good.

I overdid it with the chicken/pasta/chips. Oh well. Friday nights are my half cheat night in that way. It's why I like to run on Fridays. But we have white kitkat in the fridge and soooo many other things. And I realised my yogurt is almost 300 calories which is as much as my apple/PB/cheese and it isn't better than that so I'm not going to be eating much of it, I predict.

Saturday

Lazy day so far. Normal brekkie and snack. Got lots of homework today,

7pm: All good today. I didn't run, and I was hoping to but lol, running sucks, I'm fine with not going. I was busy, I got one assignment done. One bigger one to go and one 30% midterm. The midterm is tomorrows priority, but I'll need to attempt both because assignment is due Tuesday.

I also had to wait for the NRMA for an hour on the side of the freeway because the tyre popped. I had my phone so no drama. I called Mum, she called NRMA, they changed my tyre. All good.

I only had a bit of lunch. Mostly fruit. I have half my calories left for the day, which is satisfying on a day that I didn't exercise.

I should be having vegetable soup for dinner, then maybe something sweet for desert? But I'm thinking not because I'd rather save my snack for tomorrow because tomorrow is gonna kill me :) I'll have lots of soup because I've had almost no water today at all. The bottle I just had is the first I think, because I just forgot. But soup is lots of water, as is fruit really. I need to drink more though. Not only am I bloated cos it's that time of the month (oh and I got an app that tracks it so I'll FINALLY know after 5 years if I'm regular or not. It's kind of sad though, that after approx 60 times, I never was able to remember one month to the next. Not once. I just think 'oh it's been awhile...' and that could mean anything from a month to 2 or 3 months. How would I know, I'm an idiot!) but soup is full of salt which causes water retention and with weigh in only 36 hours away I need to consider these things. This week will make or break me. It hasn't been too painful I don't think, but that's retrospective. It always sucks more at the time. If I don't lose a kilo, then I'll be desperately unhappy and might want to give up. If I have one clinker packet, I've lost. The game will go down the drain. Because then I'll want another and after a few days, I will give in. I just need to go well for 3 weeks. That's it. Then I'll have formed a habit and I'll have lost 2-3kgs and even if I have a so-so week, I'll have something to look back on that I can say, no, it does work, I just had a bad week. I'm sure next week will prove that.

8:30pm: Yeah, I had soup with a buttered bread roll. Sooooo good. It's funny how good some things taste when you're hungry and you're just in the mood for that kind of thing. Bread is the ultimate comfort food :)

Sunday

Well, today is the last day of this week. I'm glad to say this week was fine, I'm not saying I did everything perfect but I filled in the table honestly and I should lose this week for sure. I ran 3 times, I exercised 5 times during the week (sometimes twice a day), I tracked my calories for the most part. I only had a few bits of chocolate. 3 TimTams on Thursday I think, and 3 rows of KitKat today. I had the snack 'left' and I took advantage of it. I went a teeny bit overboard but I'd just come back from a run and I actually did need the calories.

All that is left today is dinner, I think I'll have steak and rice or something filling. I know it's the end of the week and that makes me want to be like 'weight in tomorrow! Eat nothing but celery and carrot sticks!' but that isn't healthy. Just so I can wake up feeling empty tomorrow morning and I don't even want that because I have an exam tomorrow.

I will lose weight tomorrow.

And if I don't... I'll grit my teeth and do even better next week. Or blame my period.

Whatever.