Do you ever want to be someone completely different? Like, do you ever look at your friends lives and desperately want to be them? Like, 'I want your parents and your grades and your friends and I wish everyone liked me the way they liked you and I wish I looked like you.'

I always remind myself that other people have negatives in their lives as well. Like, the girl I've always envied, she has a painful, debilitating illness that means she can't run or do sport and is really, incredibly restricted in lots of ways I take for granted. I couldn't deal with something like that. I'd hate it.

But yeah, I guess sometimes it's hard to not be envious of other people. My life isn't perfect but I'm happy with a fair lot of it.

But I'm sad right now because I'm moving in a few days against my own personal preference, I'm losing my dogs, who I love more than almost anyone, and it's going to kill me, I know it. I have a 30% midterm tomorrow, I have a big psych assignment due Tuesday. I have to weigh myself tomorrow. I'm just... stressed and upset.

My life is good. I know that.