jess

I miss my best friend.

Or... just friend.

I don't know.

She was my best friend.

But she got a boyfriend and then we stopped hanging out so much but it was okay because we had so much fun when we did hang out and she was my spirit animal and we got each other but then I grew up some more and she grew up some more and it went wrong and different.

She got more into being a gamer and music and art and I got more mainstream... I don't know. In some ways I felt like I was growing up and she wasn't and in other ways I felt she was more mature.

But I don't want to lose her and now Megan just said she's going with her for a week on holiday and i haven't even talked to her in months and I'm violently, violently jealous because I miss her and miss being friends with her and why Megan and not me.

It's not that I begrudge that Megan is still friends with her but I thought we were in the same boat and apparently not. It's hard and it makes me sad and mad and Jess frustrates me because I'm feeling like this and why isn't she feeling like this too? Why hasn't she contacted me in so long? I'm online all the time, I'm not hard to find.

Just a rant.