It already has sort of... I broke up the constant entries about Austin with entries on sexism and feminism. Now... what I need to record, as well as those things, is.... I really really want this diet/ slight lifestyle change to work out.
And, if I'm being careful to record, then I'm more likely to hold myself to it. If I think someone could be watching, or keeping track too, then I will put more effort into not going to find the salt and vinegar chips, even though I really really want them. But I always want them. Same with the block of chocolate in the fridge. I need to say no.
Like, right now, I just had a bowl of fruit, strawberries, passionfruit, apple and grapes. It might be full of sugar but I don't give a fuck about that, when the choice is that or chips. I'm doing well.
But the point is, I'm not hungry. I had a sandwich at half past one-ish, and then fruit half an hour ago, I'm not hungry. But I want to eat anyway. Sigh. I think my biggest problem is that I overeat, because I like to eat.
I don't get full so I just keep eating.
So I will try some tips, eating with my knife and fork the wrong way round, so I have to think momentarily before I take a mouthful and will eat slower and also, eat off smaller plates, because apparently it's a good way to trick your brain into thinking you've eat more.
I don't want to be obsessed with this- I don't want to be a crazy focused dieter, I just want to learn how to eat more healthy meals so I can get slimmer, but also healthier, which I will supplement with exercise.
I think that'll work.
Here are my rules.
No biscuits-period. I don't like them that much but if the cupboard is empty of anything better, I'll grab the box of Shapes or a few cream biscuits or a Tim Tam or two. That has got to stop. It's not worth it.
One unhealthy snack a day. That means I can have a small serving of salty chips, or a Milo, or some chocolate, without going overboard. I can't follow a no-snacks, or no junk food rule. Firstly, because those types of diets don't work, unless you plan to do that indefinitely, the weight will just come back once you stop the diet. I need to learn moderation.
I don't know what to do about dinner. Mum cooks steak and chips most of the time, those kinds of meals. Or I have mac n cheese, from a packet. Or microwave lasagne. Mum doesn't know anything else and I'm not smash hot either. I'm the best eater in my family in that I'll eat new foods and different foods, but still, it's not really enough. I make salad though, that's my new rule, salad every night, not just whenever I can be bothered or feel like it, because otherwise I have meals of just macaroni by itself on the plate, and then I'm back an hour later, looking for the choc.
No hot chocolate when I'm out. At uni or after work- no. Not only does it cost $4.50 but it's got cream and marshmallows and it's fucking heavenly but it's so unhealthy and it's something that I just have to stop.
Also, brush my teeth twice a day. This is something people I know would find gross but I really... don't brush my teeth. If I want my teeth to get whiter and improve my smile, I need to get into the habit. So, I have a check sheet, and twice a day, I have to check it. Because this isn't just about weight, it's about overall lifestyle. I cleaned my room 2 days ago, when I started this, and since then, I've kept it neat and hung my clothes and put my clothes in the basket and made my bed and unpacked the dishwasher and put away the butter after making a sandwich...etc. I'm trying to turn over a new leaf and just improve general hygiene and cleanliness.
Walking the dogs- another lifestyle improvement hopefully, I have it on my check sheet twice a week, then twice a week half an hour of jogging as well. This is a work in progress because although I used to be good at cross country or whatever, now I've put on some weight, I have bad stamina. So it'll be jog/walking but I'll improve.
Like, I walked the dogs today and at the park, I ran from the swings to the fence on the other side of the park, around/ over 150m. I figured, if I could do that a bunch of times, run to the fence, walk back the the swings, repeat, I could keep my heart rate up (ish) by not stopping, but not kill myself, until I get fitter. So I did that 7 times, which is I guess over a k of running and a k of walking. Plus another k or two of the rest of the walk I did with the dogs. So... tomorrow I'll go again and do it 10 times. And after a few times of that, maybe I can run to the fence and back, then walk only to the fence? So run:walk at a ratio of 2:1? I know cardio is the way to drop weight so I know I need to do things so keep up my heart rate. Plus walking the dogs and letting them run with me is fun for them (though they did get tired after 7, they have very little legs).
Also, on my check list is Fab Ab February. I know it's not February, but I don't care, I missed it and it's the middle of March. So I'm just starting 16th of March is 1st of Feb and doing it each day. That's for abs. Then on the first of April, I'll start Mad Abs March. There will be crossover, but that's okay, it only takes about 2 minutes so far (each day gets longer, as you have to do more). And they have different things on them. Febuary has sit ups, push ups and plank, March is crunches, side plank and push ups.
I want this to work out.
I hate being overweight. Even if it's just a little bit. My BMI puts me just over healthy range- I'm in overweight. It's a scary thought.
So I want to fix it and keep it fixed but I can't do Atkins diet or anything promising fast results, from eating only protein or no carbs or any of that, I don't have the resources to just eat those foods or the skill to make meals out of it or the will to keep it going.
But a good exercise program, just a few hours a week more than I do now, and improving my diet, I can do this, and lose a kilo a week, or maybe a bit less but I can do it.
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