Damn it.

I fucked up.

I hate it when I do that. I just... urgh, why can I never keep my big mouth shut.

See, there is this cyclic link, of me, my cousin, my best friend and her boyfriend. I talk to my best friend, she talks to her boyfriend, her boyfriend talks to my cousin and my cousin talks to me. And the opposite direction.

So I hear some gossip about the boyfriend from my best friend. Then I hear it again from my cousin. But different. Boyfriend left some details out. So I tell my best friend what I heard.

She freaks, gets incredibly mad at boyfriend. I get stressed for causing it and for possibly making things bad between my cousin and the boyfriend.

It's my fault.

And it's not the first time either! If anyone of them bitches about the other, I hear it and I can't help but pass it on and it gets back to them and it's my fault, what is wrong with me?

Argh.

My cousin and I actually share another hey-it's-a-small-world links. She's good friends with you-know-who's girlfriends older sister, so I get lots of gossip through that, but thankfully, that link is one way.

I saw both you-know-who and his girlfriend today at uni. Seperatly, which is better. You know who and I got coffee and talked for a little while, but we're going to hopefully meet up that time weekly so that'll be perfect, because I was this close to slamming the door on the idea that we could be friends and starting to think that maybe it just wasn't possible.

He and I talked about my best friend a bit. Their long standing feud for one thing. They have so much in common and in some ways I think they are so alike, but they don't see it. He was saying that he didn't like her even in Year 10 and such, way back when I juts assumed they were no comment about each other, just in the same group type friends, but then he was just like joking around, like 'and then she started to hate me, hmm I wonder why that could have been, let me think...' which I thought was kind of funny.

Then he was like 'yeah, but she kinda overreacted' and I said 'I didn't mind it. I kind of under reacted so it felt like she was kind of balancing it out.' and he agreed with me. Maybe that's progress.