It's nice being told once in a while that someone would be down to bang you.

I mean, I know who is messaging me (even if it's on anon) and I'm not into them, but I don't mind 'flirting' because it doesn't hurt anyone.

It makes me feel good (until they start romantic flirting) and presumably it's not hurting them either, so win win.

As a general rule, I am a lot more comfortable with being wanted phyically, it's only when a guy actually wants me for my personality that I shudder and turn off and be like ew no.

The loophole is giving me attention but acting like an asshole because ambiguity is at the root of all attraction. If you may like me, but I'm not sure, so I have to work to find out, that's how guys make girls chase them. I think anyway :)

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Damn it, my best friend may be half way around the world but she knows how to ruin things.

I am mad.

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So really, not a big deal. A guy I know messaged me on Tumblr, stating obliquely that he would be down to fuck me hard over a table. It was anonymous but well... I'm not an idiot.

Actually, I didn't get the message, what I got was him apologising for the message, after assuming my non response was offence. Then he resent when I was like 'lol what?'

I shouldn't have encouraged it, I know, but this is one of my bad traits, I encourage boys I don't like. I was/am never going to fuck this guy, never gonna kiss him or do anything in person. But I have hormones ok and I read too much smut and I thought, good opportunity, maybe this could be sexy?

But sadly, his messages dissolved into 'I want to hold you' etc and that's such a turn off, I was just like no thanks. That only makes me happy in real life, with actual romantic feelings, not purely... whatever this was, since I was neither physically or romantically into this guy. Anyway, I was hoping I could get tingles if he happened to be exceptionally eloquent and confident, but sadly my bitching to my bffl just lead to her anonymously messaging him, telling him that was what I wanted.

If you have to be told...

Plus, he probably thought it was me messaging him and that ruined it. I just disengaged.

For the best probably. It's not that I have a problem messing around, but I should do it when I have interest, rather than just doing it while disengaged, mostly just for psychological kicks.

Also, just have to say, I am obsessed with Ed Sheeran right now. So much talent, dear God.