So!
I have my stats exam I have barely started to study for worth 70% on Monday, and I have been entertaining myself during this time primarily through binge watching Scandal (which was amazing, holy shit, I'm really sad that I'm up to date now) and just watched Carmilla, which is a web show about vampires and gay girls on youtube that is mildly amusing. I got into the plot, even if the characters are are little 2D. I'm thinking I might start House of Cards, really get my fill of political dramas. I've also been successfully procrastinating reading Julia Gillard's new book, which I got signed when I met her earlier this week. That pretty much was amazing/inspiring/all those good things. I've known for a long time that I don't have the personality to be a politician, but sometimes I want to so very, very badly.
I feel like I have the passion for it. Actually, I want to be Mellie from Scandal, she's the First Lady but I'm hoping she's going to end up running for President herself eventually. So I suppose I want to be Hilary Clinton, but without the cheating husband drama to get through first. But no, I'm not career driven enough to be a politician, unfortunately. I couldn't be dedicated for a million years to maybe get a shot at the big time. And all the schmoozing and having to be friends with people, no that's not me. If only. I'm watching Obama's G20 speech right now and may cry. I could listen to that man speak all day long.
What else is happening for me? My bday is coming up, and that's getting organised which is exciting. Definitely the biggest event I've ever organised, though Mum did most of it, let's be real. I invited to person I like, which is the most exciting thing, and they're coming, which already puts them miles ahead of you-know-who, who cancelled on the last three of my birthdays, despite knowing how desperately I wanted him to come and that if he missed last year, it would be definitively three strikes and he's out. So if this new person shows up, they'll have already done more to show I matter to them than that person did in three years. The bar is very low, obviously.
I just feel really positive about things. Not that we'll get together-- I wouldn't even think to bet on that, the odds are terrible, but there's something there. I like having a new friend and while it's still very new, I definitely don't think it's completely one sided friendship. I'd say more but they know how to find my blog and I'm not interested in making things super weird.
It's not even at the stage of thinking about them much or changing any behaviours because I think it'll impress them or attract them, it's more like... it's a small slice of my life that when I think about it, it makes me feel very happy and content, like things aren't static and the possibility for change is there, but even as things are now, they're good.
Okay bed time. Let's not be the worst student and self sabotageur in the world.
I have my stats exam I have barely started to study for worth 70% on Monday, and I have been entertaining myself during this time primarily through binge watching Scandal (which was amazing, holy shit, I'm really sad that I'm up to date now) and just watched Carmilla, which is a web show about vampires and gay girls on youtube that is mildly amusing. I got into the plot, even if the characters are are little 2D. I'm thinking I might start House of Cards, really get my fill of political dramas. I've also been successfully procrastinating reading Julia Gillard's new book, which I got signed when I met her earlier this week. That pretty much was amazing/inspiring/all those good things. I've known for a long time that I don't have the personality to be a politician, but sometimes I want to so very, very badly.
I feel like I have the passion for it. Actually, I want to be Mellie from Scandal, she's the First Lady but I'm hoping she's going to end up running for President herself eventually. So I suppose I want to be Hilary Clinton, but without the cheating husband drama to get through first. But no, I'm not career driven enough to be a politician, unfortunately. I couldn't be dedicated for a million years to maybe get a shot at the big time. And all the schmoozing and having to be friends with people, no that's not me. If only. I'm watching Obama's G20 speech right now and may cry. I could listen to that man speak all day long.
What else is happening for me? My bday is coming up, and that's getting organised which is exciting. Definitely the biggest event I've ever organised, though Mum did most of it, let's be real. I invited to person I like, which is the most exciting thing, and they're coming, which already puts them miles ahead of you-know-who, who cancelled on the last three of my birthdays, despite knowing how desperately I wanted him to come and that if he missed last year, it would be definitively three strikes and he's out. So if this new person shows up, they'll have already done more to show I matter to them than that person did in three years. The bar is very low, obviously.
I just feel really positive about things. Not that we'll get together-- I wouldn't even think to bet on that, the odds are terrible, but there's something there. I like having a new friend and while it's still very new, I definitely don't think it's completely one sided friendship. I'd say more but they know how to find my blog and I'm not interested in making things super weird.
It's not even at the stage of thinking about them much or changing any behaviours because I think it'll impress them or attract them, it's more like... it's a small slice of my life that when I think about it, it makes me feel very happy and content, like things aren't static and the possibility for change is there, but even as things are now, they're good.
Okay bed time. Let's not be the worst student and self sabotageur in the world.
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