So I decided to do NaNoWriMo this year.
I always mean to, but I never have any good ideas swirling at the end of October to throw myself into. This year, thankfully I do. The story I wrote while I was backpacking is still inspiring me, and while it is already 50 000, I wrote it using the writing advice I picked up somewhere along the way, of first writing for yourself as the author, to tell yourself the story. Only once that's done do you go back and actually write the story in a way that is coherent for another audience.
My best friend Megan has been asking to read it for months, which I was okay with. I mean, it's intensely personal but she's my best friend and I pretty much tell her everything I think regardless so I didn't think it'd be a problem. Only I did reread it and realise there were a few embarrassing things in there. Since it uses real people, and is based off real life, there is some embarrassing romantic content. Like, in it, Megan and I totally make out in Paris. I don't know how weird it is to write stories where you kiss your platonic best friends? I feel like it's weird. Like, I'd totally forgotten about it until I reread it, and I'm not harbouring a secret crush, I just feel like in this story, I would totally go there because we are much closer and I'm much more isolated and we've been soul mate-type best friends for 15 years prior and in-story it makes sense and totally plays out realistically (I get turned down because she has a boyf, it's a familiar storyline haha). Either way, I may need to cut it if I'm going to show it to her.
But also there is some weird sexual content. Again, completely valid for the story, it's exploring how an adult in a childs body would express sexual desire when everyone her mental age is off limits due to her child like body, and everyone her physical age is actually a child and is unable to consent and also not appealing, so there is a level of mental sexuality that has to be addressed. It's funny, I have no problem writing the sexual content but it's super embarrassing to let anyone else read it. Like, even though it's just a few lines here and there, stuff like 'I look at him and imagine him doing this with his that to my this', it's like, no thanks, I'll keep it to myself. I've only got like 2 friends that I'm straight up like 'yeah so I'm writing a hardcore gay threesome under the effects of a fuck-or-die sex pollen for a Wincestiel kink meme prompt' and even then, I probably wouldn't show them the final result. The only sex scene I've ever published was years ago, and it was a with-plot sex scene, even if it was a one shot. My cousin reviewed it and said it was very much 'making love' which was nice, if only to show how my taste has changed since 2010 haha.
Anyway, since obviously the story will be written over November, it's not much yet, but this is the link to my story, if you want to check it out, see how I'm going. Give me a kick up the bum if I stop updating the word count. I want to really give this a good go.
Most people would be like 'writing a novel during exam time? that seems like bad timing' but I'd disagree, I'm more productive during exam time than any other time of year. I always find a million other interests and hobbies during STUVAC than I have during the leisurely hours of Summer. Because I suck.
I always mean to, but I never have any good ideas swirling at the end of October to throw myself into. This year, thankfully I do. The story I wrote while I was backpacking is still inspiring me, and while it is already 50 000, I wrote it using the writing advice I picked up somewhere along the way, of first writing for yourself as the author, to tell yourself the story. Only once that's done do you go back and actually write the story in a way that is coherent for another audience.
My best friend Megan has been asking to read it for months, which I was okay with. I mean, it's intensely personal but she's my best friend and I pretty much tell her everything I think regardless so I didn't think it'd be a problem. Only I did reread it and realise there were a few embarrassing things in there. Since it uses real people, and is based off real life, there is some embarrassing romantic content. Like, in it, Megan and I totally make out in Paris. I don't know how weird it is to write stories where you kiss your platonic best friends? I feel like it's weird. Like, I'd totally forgotten about it until I reread it, and I'm not harbouring a secret crush, I just feel like in this story, I would totally go there because we are much closer and I'm much more isolated and we've been soul mate-type best friends for 15 years prior and in-story it makes sense and totally plays out realistically (I get turned down because she has a boyf, it's a familiar storyline haha). Either way, I may need to cut it if I'm going to show it to her.
But also there is some weird sexual content. Again, completely valid for the story, it's exploring how an adult in a childs body would express sexual desire when everyone her mental age is off limits due to her child like body, and everyone her physical age is actually a child and is unable to consent and also not appealing, so there is a level of mental sexuality that has to be addressed. It's funny, I have no problem writing the sexual content but it's super embarrassing to let anyone else read it. Like, even though it's just a few lines here and there, stuff like 'I look at him and imagine him doing this with his that to my this', it's like, no thanks, I'll keep it to myself. I've only got like 2 friends that I'm straight up like 'yeah so I'm writing a hardcore gay threesome under the effects of a fuck-or-die sex pollen for a Wincestiel kink meme prompt' and even then, I probably wouldn't show them the final result. The only sex scene I've ever published was years ago, and it was a with-plot sex scene, even if it was a one shot. My cousin reviewed it and said it was very much 'making love' which was nice, if only to show how my taste has changed since 2010 haha.
Anyway, since obviously the story will be written over November, it's not much yet, but this is the link to my story, if you want to check it out, see how I'm going. Give me a kick up the bum if I stop updating the word count. I want to really give this a good go.
Most people would be like 'writing a novel during exam time? that seems like bad timing' but I'd disagree, I'm more productive during exam time than any other time of year. I always find a million other interests and hobbies during STUVAC than I have during the leisurely hours of Summer. Because I suck.
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