I mean, it's not the most comfortable situation for me to be in, but I managed. Stacey and I did our thing, but eventually I was bored, and Stacey is so, so pretty that she attracts boys like flies and I have to entertain myself which is the worst because it means I basically prostitute myself out on the dance floor. I don't like dancing by myself, it's weird and lame, so I find boys, make eyes, and dance with them. But that tends to lead to other stuff pretty quickly and I wasn't really in the mood and I'm quite choosy and like to pick attractive boys only to kiss so I tried a new technique of not letting them kiss me by looking straight ahead, like, at their chests or whatever, when I thought they were going to try. If I looked them in the face, I'd have to kiss them.
But I talked to another dude just randomly, which was nice. I don't remember his name now but I was just leaning against the wall near the toilets waiting for Stacey and he was doing the same, so he just struck up conversation which I liked.
In the end, I just told Stacey about 1am that I was leaving, she was like nooo but I said adios and walked home, telling her to text me when she got home safe, which is our normal method because sometimes it's easier to just walk home, rather than get a taxi cos we live quite close.
What else did I did this week?
I got into a fight with a girl at a concert, which I am pretty pleased about. I love feeling badass. I mean, she started it and it was her fault so yeah, good times. Street cred and store of interesting anecdotes +1.
My last shift at work was today. It went well, I gave my boss a gift which I felt awkward about but I just waited til the end, he was out the front so I moved the bag over to 'his stuff' and was about to leave when he came out the back, so I just said 'that's for you, thanks for everything, merry christmas bye'. I feel pleased.
As for my trip, I leave next Friday morning at six am so it is not long now. Especially with Christmas in the middle of that time. I haven't really started packing yet, but I have most of the stuff I need. I got a warm winter coat from my cousin, who also gave me gloves, a scarf and a cute beanie. I have lots of berets as well, I got two new pairs of jeans, new boots, I have a cute new handbag and backpack...
I have a whole bunch of travel cards, my OS HELP loan came through, so I have money again (relief). My Dad said he would take my phone plan for the 6 months, which was nice of him, since obviously I can't use it overseas.
What else....? I'm going to see my dogs on Monday, so that'll be nice. I'll see my Dad too. I'll get a whole bunch of new pictures and videos. I've been taking selfies and pictures like mad. I'm going to miss my house and my street and the beach and my country.
I just went to a Christmas party in my building which was good. My social skills lack a lot, but I still do try, and manage a fair bit. My Mum started every conversation I joined with 'LUCY IS GOING ON EXCHANGE IN LESS THAN A WEEK' and that is actually an exciting thing so it was a good conversation starter. I actually find ending conversations much more difficult than starting them. Like, I'm decent as joining a group, saying 'Hey, I'm Lucy, nice to meet you', but sidling off after being quiet for awhile or when it's just me and one other person, it gets awkward once conversation stops.
Other than that, life is pretty much the same as ever, seeing my friends, watching movies, going the beach, blogging. Ooh, Stacey, her friend Monique and I went 'scuba diving' a few days ago, just off the rocks at South Beach. I have such a girl crush on Stacey. Like, I'm bi, so I also have legitimate crushes on girls, but this is not that, it's a friend crush. It's a 'I wanna be just like you, you are so, so pretty and nice'. It is too bad I am leaving because we are hanging out and being friends and it's awesome and I like it. I've been sceptical for ages about making new friends because I thought I didn't like the meeting people stage, but you know, it's not that bad, it's actually kind of fun. Like, the first time you find out someone quit their Maccas job because all their coworkers found out they got caught in the pool having sex with their boyfriend... priceless. And it's nice meetings friends of friends and new groups and people that aren't already in your friend group and have their own network, it's the best because they do things different. They are friends different. I do very much like that.
My bffl and I, we are best friends in a way that is created by our own expectations of how friendship works, and it is moderated by each other where our views differ. Unspoken rules of what is allowed, what isn't, what's weird, what is expected... and yes, it does evolve over time, because we grow and are exposed to more variety, but especially when you are someone like me, who enjoys letting the other person call the shots, I am enjoying a totally different brand of relationship than my regular by being friends with Stacey outside of work.
Ok I'm sleepy now, but that's my life really.
Also, I am slowly weaning myself off Taylor Swift again. I have listened for nothing else, literally for almost a month. But now I'm getting obsessed with Guy Sebastion. Mostly because he performed as an opener for T-Swizzle, and I really liked 'Like A Drum', though I never actually looked it up until today because I heard it on the radio and loved it, but I'd forgotten it was by him. Searching for it once I'd forgotten the lyrics was difficult but I succeeded finally. I also really like 'Who's that Girl?' for some reason.
The music video also reminds me of my ultimate OTP of Ellie/Homer, so that helps.
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