I'm really nervous about going away and money.

I am freakkkkking out, because do you know how much money is in my bank account now? $1500. That's it.

All I have.

Plus $1000 on a travel card that has been converted into pounds.

Those bits of money are not going to last me 6 months, which is supposed to be travelling as well as studying. I know I am getting a loan, plus $1000 grant, plus Centrelink but right now, I don't have any of that. My Centrelink got cancelled and probably won't get sorted until next year, once I've already left on my European adventure. I'm supposed to get my loan on the 20th, but because I first asked for the $2500 loan (idiot) and then switched to the $6000 loan on the second lot of official paperwork, I don't know what I'll be recieving. So I suppose I will find out on Friday. I am pretty sure $6000 but I am not counting chickens just yet.

I get a travel grant once I'm at Exeter for $1000,  but that's not confirmed until I'm there and send the right forms, saying that I' m studying and accepted and all is cool.

Plus Centrelink should start and I should get at least $100 a week but I have no idea when I'll get that, plus $1000 in March when uni term in Australia starts. Plus Mum should give me at a couple hundred pounds for Christmas and the next two weeks of work will get me at least $800 so I will try to breathe.

I suppose I didn't think some things would be as expensive as they were, like accomodation is like 2/3 of all my money gone, and that is terrifying, truly.

But at least everything is done now, pretty much. All of my accomodation until June is sorted. My week in London is booked, my train ticket from London to Exeter is booked. Obviously flights are booked.

Obviously food, attractions and general sightseeing is going to cut into funds but as long as I have that $6000 in my bank account, I am not going to be scared, and it will be okay. Just until then, I'm too scared to do anything but worry. I'll get excited once everything else is sorted.