Blogging isn't easy when there isn't much to say! Things are progressing as they always do.
Everything is very satisfying, friends, work, uni etc etc. Mental health has been a bit weird but I'm making a doctors appointment and might see about getting a therapist for that. Nothing serious but if getting help fixes things better than I can do on my own, why not right? As squeamish and judgemental as I am about that stuff, it's literally the profession I've chosen so I should deal with that probably.
I had three 21st's this weekend, which was intense, but super fun! I saw a guy I used to date in high school that I've fallen out of contact with and we had a fun time catching up. I'm fine not being friends any more but there is still fondness there. I got drunk-ish at the next 21st but not as much as I'd have liked. The weather just didn't cooperate and it was cold and leeches and things so my friend and I ditched and went home early, though we stayed up until 6am talking. I haven't had a sleepover in forever, it was great. We made pancakes in the morning and got ready for our Mad Hatter's Tea Party 21st which was amazeballs. We went as Cheshire cats and it was oodles of fun, I love dress up.
Debating is going wonderfully. Exceeding all expectations, I love it and look forward to it and enjoy it immensely, so that's a new passion found. I'm glad I don't find it difficult to get excited about things, I'm already planning for the weekend competition I'll be competing in at the end of term, because why not? I'm not scared of the speaking the way I was only three weeks ago, and I think I'm improving a bit.
I've also started learning Dutch. I found this wonderful site, it's like a game. You get points and gems and stuff for getting through exercises and you have lives that get lost when you get the wrong answer and it's just this great learning tool and hopefully I stay enthusiastic and keep learning enough to hold a conversation and then I can start practising with my Dutch friends, who would be totally supportive and helpful.
My other goal for this year is to start learning guitar. Either by borrowing or buying cheaply and then seeing if I like it/ have any affinity for it through youtube tutorials. I just want to be able to play Taylor Swift songs, lets be real here. But I have the time to do all these things and I don't want to be one of those people who didn't learn an instrument or a language as a kid and think, oh well, that's never going to be me, because hold on, like, I'm 20, not on my way to the grave. The rest of my life is an awfully long time just to think 'well, I'm too old to start now'.
When I wrote my story where I got a chance to go back and fix things, I realised with shock that literally, I could have everything that I had in my story. I could have fitness and music skills and speaking skills and artistic skills and language skills and confidence. Maybe not to the incredible levels I had in my story, but I don't have to accept that my personal narrative is already set and unchangeable. I mean, I think I'm already kind of interesting, but how much more interesting could I be if I had all these skills and interests?
No one wants someone who just sits around all day, people want to be with people that are passionate and apply themselves and are willing to try new things, no matter how good or bad they are. Amy Poehler has this great quote about how great people don't wait until they're ready. Like with travel, there is never a perfect time, you just have to go and try. I know I sound really self help book right now but really, the second you start to think you're limited, you become limited. If you put in time, and work, and effort, you can do pretty much most things.
I'm optimistic tonight I guess :)
Everything is very satisfying, friends, work, uni etc etc. Mental health has been a bit weird but I'm making a doctors appointment and might see about getting a therapist for that. Nothing serious but if getting help fixes things better than I can do on my own, why not right? As squeamish and judgemental as I am about that stuff, it's literally the profession I've chosen so I should deal with that probably.
I had three 21st's this weekend, which was intense, but super fun! I saw a guy I used to date in high school that I've fallen out of contact with and we had a fun time catching up. I'm fine not being friends any more but there is still fondness there. I got drunk-ish at the next 21st but not as much as I'd have liked. The weather just didn't cooperate and it was cold and leeches and things so my friend and I ditched and went home early, though we stayed up until 6am talking. I haven't had a sleepover in forever, it was great. We made pancakes in the morning and got ready for our Mad Hatter's Tea Party 21st which was amazeballs. We went as Cheshire cats and it was oodles of fun, I love dress up.
Debating is going wonderfully. Exceeding all expectations, I love it and look forward to it and enjoy it immensely, so that's a new passion found. I'm glad I don't find it difficult to get excited about things, I'm already planning for the weekend competition I'll be competing in at the end of term, because why not? I'm not scared of the speaking the way I was only three weeks ago, and I think I'm improving a bit.
I've also started learning Dutch. I found this wonderful site, it's like a game. You get points and gems and stuff for getting through exercises and you have lives that get lost when you get the wrong answer and it's just this great learning tool and hopefully I stay enthusiastic and keep learning enough to hold a conversation and then I can start practising with my Dutch friends, who would be totally supportive and helpful.
My other goal for this year is to start learning guitar. Either by borrowing or buying cheaply and then seeing if I like it/ have any affinity for it through youtube tutorials. I just want to be able to play Taylor Swift songs, lets be real here. But I have the time to do all these things and I don't want to be one of those people who didn't learn an instrument or a language as a kid and think, oh well, that's never going to be me, because hold on, like, I'm 20, not on my way to the grave. The rest of my life is an awfully long time just to think 'well, I'm too old to start now'.
When I wrote my story where I got a chance to go back and fix things, I realised with shock that literally, I could have everything that I had in my story. I could have fitness and music skills and speaking skills and artistic skills and language skills and confidence. Maybe not to the incredible levels I had in my story, but I don't have to accept that my personal narrative is already set and unchangeable. I mean, I think I'm already kind of interesting, but how much more interesting could I be if I had all these skills and interests?
No one wants someone who just sits around all day, people want to be with people that are passionate and apply themselves and are willing to try new things, no matter how good or bad they are. Amy Poehler has this great quote about how great people don't wait until they're ready. Like with travel, there is never a perfect time, you just have to go and try. I know I sound really self help book right now but really, the second you start to think you're limited, you become limited. If you put in time, and work, and effort, you can do pretty much most things.
I'm optimistic tonight I guess :)
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