When you find out that a childhood series that you loved, about female friendship that you related to like almost nothing else has a new book, set 10 years in the future, you don't expect to have your heart ripped out by a character committing suicide.

I did not expect this night to be me crying and gasping and trying to regain the breath that this book is knocking out of me.

Jesus fuck.

Books, man.

Now I have to put myself back together

and yes, fuck you it is past 5am